Bella and Rookie
Rookie 1-year-old
My Prince
Last picture of Rookie and me

Rookie, This morning you collapsed on the floor. I lifted you up and carried you in my arms to the couch, and we laid there together.
I hugged you tight, breathed along with you, and I kept on whispering, “I love you so much, Rookie. You can go now. It’s okay, I’ll be okay.”
But I lied. At that moment, I just wanted all your pain to go away. I didn’t want to see you struggle just for me. It would be selfish of me to make you stay.
I wanted to tell you that I’m still hoping for a miracle. Please don’t leave me because I will miss you so much if you go. Please stay because I don’t know if I’m strong enough to handle this alone. But all that I did was cry. I hugged you even tighter. I held you in my arms,
…until your very last breath.

Thank you for everything, my little boy.
I miss you so much.
Love always, me
August 6, 2020

If Rookie could hear me now, I would tell him; I love you more than you will ever know. Well, maybe you do know, as I hugged and kissed you more than 20 times a day when you were here with me. Even when I only left for a few minutes, you never failed to get excited to see me again. You made me feel special, and I knew that you loved me as well. All of my friends, even Facebook and IG followers, know just how much I adored you. My phone is full of pictures of you. You were my best friend and number one fan.

Rookie and I at Lake Louise - Alberta Canada
Bella and Rookie, enjoying a car ride.
Bella and Rookie at the beach
Rookie and Bella napping outside
Bella and Rookie at the beach
Family picture — Bella, me, and Rookie
Bella 10 years old
Rookie and Bella
Bella and Rookie was always right next to each other
Great day at the beach with Rookie and Bella
This is the last picture of Bella and Rookie together. I took this picture an hour before she passed away. They would take turns laying on this blanket on top of the pillows, but this evening Bella went over there and laid right next to Rookie. You can tell he is confused, but maybe she knew she didn’t have much time left on this earth, and she just wanted to be close to him.
Rookie and Ruby
Rookie and Ruby
Rookie and Ruby
Rookie and Ruby
Ruby
Ruby
Ruby saying goodbye to Rookie
Ruby Dog Sling Carrier
Ruby Dog Sling Carrier

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